Be Still My Heart

I’ve been asking myself a lot recently because every job I’ve been doing, I find myself saying the same thing: ‘It’s so hard.’ And I don’t know if I’m having ‘fun.’ But after saying that, I realize over and over again that I do take a kind of pleasure in it. I think when I respond to material it’s because it’s above me. It’s smarter than I am. It’s talking about things I haven’t kind of figured out and that’s why I want to go towards it, because it holds my attention for long enough. It’s the distance that I have to cross between myself and the character, to something I don’t understand, and I’m working through that constantly.